Saturday, February 20, 2010

Positive feelings

Tonight, I'm feeling better.  My mom IMed me, which reminded me that she loved me and cared about me.  Its amazing how much I value my family and the time I get with them now that I am gone.  I really miss knowing about everything that is happening in their lives.  They listened to my showtunes radio show the other day, and called me telling me how much they enjoyed it.  My little brother told me he was proud of me for doing a good job.  It was nice to hear.  I'm so proud of my little sister, she made the lead in her school play, which is AWESOME!
Then earlier today I had a thought provoking three hour conversation with a new friend.  Its so nice to see how others see things sometimes.  It was nice to both talk and listen.
My roommate and I got into a great conversation today as well, and I realize I am so lucky to have 2 out of AMAZING roommates.  They support me and have fun with me and really make it enjoyable to live with them.
Also, I got to talk to an old friend tonight, who lives down the street from my family.  It was nice to be able to catch up with her and to plan a time to hang out.  
Then, I got to talk to my other good friend at home, who has been there every step of the way in my tough times of late.  Man, I am so greatful for her, and her positive attitude. 
So tonight, even though I still miss my boyfriend, even though I'm still hurting about my old friend, even though I'm stressed....I feel good.  I feel thankful that I have a whole bunch of people in my life who support me and care about me and want to see me succeed and not hurt.  Life is good, even though it sucks some times.  I think it sucks so I can get through it stronger and ultimately, happier.
*happy sigh* its nice to feel okay.  Like I'm going to make it.


  1. Isn't it weird the way things work out? while i was in high school i avoided my family as much as possible, and even for many years after high school. Now that i have experienced what i have, i am really upset with how much time i spent avoiding my family when i was younger.
    btw: good job being positive!

  2. Thanks! Its just amazing how much I am glad I have them , and how much I miss him now that I am away.